9.

I am loving life right now.

I am finally reading the bible again, and learning from it, thanks to a friend...

Learning is helping my attitudes and my heart to change....

And I am so in love with Jesus.

And it's been a real long time since I've been able to say it and mean it.

I am so amazed by the whole concept of freedom at the minute.

That Jesus has set me free.....

Despite me being rubbish and sinful, god sees me as faultless and has gladly given me freedom..... Jesus gladly died for me... Infact it pleased him too.....
But he didn't die so that I could go on the way I am...

He died so I could be free from all the things that hold me back ; fear,worry,insecurity,doubt......

He died so I could live free and live to the full...

I can let go of all the negativity.... And just live free.

( I'm not saying I'm never going to be negative again..... But I am so often consumed by negative thoughts... And I don't have to be....)

I am loving falling in love with Jesus.

x

I can't sleep

Well,
That's a lie.
I slept, but woke up at 5. At least I won't be late for work?
I don't know what it is that I just can't get a proper sleep. I'm either not getting to sleep until 3 or 4, or I'm waking early.

I feel defeated right now, and worried.

I overthink, and I over worry.

I'm not so sure I'm cut out for this social work/support worker business.

I need to learn to switch off. 'did I ring this person? That organisation? Have I typed their assessment? Support plan? What I'm I doing with that young person tomorrow? Will they make it through the night? Did I make the right decision? Have I remembered everything for this contact? '

I need to switch off.


Or work in a shop.

( I'm also continue to fail at my 15minute challenge)

24 goals

Worry, worry worry worry

I worry.

alot.


about everything.
about anything.
about big things.
about the littlest things.


and sometimes, it's just time to stop.

So.

I'm gonna try and stop being such a worrier.

I don't know if that is possible....

but I need to try.