I had a tough decision to make.
I made it. I took it back. I made it again. I went through with it......and here I am... Unemployment.
and i'm heartbroken.
honestly heartbroken.
I'm sure it was the right decision. that's what my head tells me. but that hasn't filtered to my heart yet.
I fear I will regret this decision for the rest of my life.
but I guess that's just because I can't see past it.
I know I will be unemployed for at least 2 months. and that's being optimistic.
That's two months with myself.
that's two months without focus, and two months without purpose.
I know that as a christian, Jesus should be my purpose. Should be my all.
that my identity should be in him.
but that's my major struggle.
I am what I do.
and right now, I'm a failure.
and that's really hard. because I made this choice......
right now I need his grace, his strength and his mercy.
I need to know that he is with me.
I need to know that he has something planned.
I need to know he can get me through my pity party...
