4.

I just want to be back in placement.

I miss that place so much. As much as I hated parts of it at the time, I really do miss it and I would love to be back there.

I just want to work in CAMHS. and I know that's so far away.

But I got a taste of my dream job.... and now I just want it.

I miss the young people, and while I know most of the one's I worked with won't be there anymore, I still want to work there again....

I honestly think I would give everything to work there again. I would sacrifice holidays,friends,a family, a husband... I would give it all to work there again.

It's why I get in from work and read about mental health, and policies, legislation and procedures.
It's my heart desire to be CAMHS inpatient social worker and practitioner.



So tonight, my hearts sore.
Cus I don't know if Child B is keeping a healthy weight, and not hating themselves for it.

Cus I don't know if Child C recieved the services I referred them to.

Cus I don't know if Child L has somewhere to live....a place that will help their heart to heal from all the shit people thought it was ok to put them through.

Cus I don't know if Child S is safe. is happy.......  is getting the help they need.

and most importantly, I don't know if Child H is alive.      Their life is worth so much.    and I just hope they know that.     


and just so I don't get in trouble, The initials used in no way relate to the young people's names.